I've been real busy coordinating a yard sale to raise funds for my DS's best friend Matt, who was badly burned on March 13. For the last 6 weeks or so I have been putting up posters, putting out donation jars, and picking up donations of items for the yard sale. We held the yard sale this weekend and instead of just 1 day, we had to run it for two days because we ended up with so much stuff! We had to use a large u-haul truck and a storage unit for the items we were given. Then on Saturday, the day of the sale, people dropped more stuff off and basically doubled what we already had. By the end of the day Saturday, we realized we did not have enough space to pack what was left back into the truck. So DH spent the night in the parking lot and we ran the sale Sunday as well. We did manage to sell quite a bit of the stuff, but the total earned wasn't as high as I was hoping for. Matt's family was very grateful though. DH, DD, DSIL, and DS were all great helps and did a wonderful job! I am so very proud of them! I just wish I could have done more than I did and taken more of the actual "doing" on my shoulders like I wanted to.
My pain has been pretty high these last few weeks. Partly due to stress (I am sure) and partly due to the fact that it has been 7 months since the first Radio Frequency procedures (lower back ones) and its starting to wear off, which means the pain in my lower back is ramping up again.
I've been feeling very down lately, specially since it has become blatantly obvious to me that I can no longer do things that need to be done and just push through the pain to do them. This has greatly saddened me.
So basically I'm in a funk..hurting more, struggling with feeling useless, struggling with fears for my future, struggling with feeling like a failure etc. etc. So no stitching lately, hence no blogging.
I am sorry for my lack of updates, lack of stitching and lack of motivation.
My pain has been pretty high these last few weeks. Partly due to stress (I am sure) and partly due to the fact that it has been 7 months since the first Radio Frequency procedures (lower back ones) and its starting to wear off, which means the pain in my lower back is ramping up again.
I've been feeling very down lately, specially since it has become blatantly obvious to me that I can no longer do things that need to be done and just push through the pain to do them. This has greatly saddened me.
So basically I'm in a funk..hurting more, struggling with feeling useless, struggling with fears for my future, struggling with feeling like a failure etc. etc. So no stitching lately, hence no blogging.
I am sorry for my lack of updates, lack of stitching and lack of motivation.
I am so sorry you're not feeling well. You most certainly should not feel useless after doing all that work for the big sale. What a lot of work, a wonderful endeavor and something for which you should be very proud. I hope your body and your spirits will feel better, soon!
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ReplyDeleteWhat a great job your doing for that boy..
ReplyDeleteI hope you can help his family.
you really great doing this, no reason of that to feel down.
Hope you feel better soon
Missy I've been browsing your blog (I hadn't visited in a long long time) and I wanted to express my support regarding your chronic pains (I have fibromyalgia and some days can be really tough) and I know all these awful feelings we sometimes have towards ourselves, or even worse, trigger in the others. Being considered a useless whining lazy person is so unfair. And sometimes the pain is so strong I end up crying -which worsens the pain... I sure know about low self-esteem...
ReplyDeleteI want to say how much I admire what you've been doing for Matt, and that you are an amazing beautiful soul.
Lots of hugs from France,
Lili Bear
I hope that you start to feel better soon. It is wonderful of you to help Matt and his family in this way, I am sure that your efforts are greatly appreciated.
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel better soon.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're feeling down. I think what you have done to help that yuong man's family is awesome! And anyone who has held a garage sale knows, TONS of work! Cheers to you! I hope you feel better soon.
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